I just realized that it has been over two months since i've posted. things have been crazy:)
ok so i'm going to cut right to the quick here and talk about things that have been bothering me lately. i seriously feel like life is passing me by. almost as if someone has made a movie about me, and i'm just sitting there; helpless to change what is going on. its like things aren't even real anymore. they say that these are the best years of your life; that we should enjoy them, but honestly its hard to when you don't even feel like your actually living your life. maybe i need to do something...get away from routine...i need something real and tangible in my life right now, but i really don't know what. maybe i should start reading my Bible more. I really want to draw closer to Jesus. sometimes i feel like such a hypocrite because i act like i'm this "super-Christian" and that i know everything about the Bible, and that because i'm a pastor's daughter, i'm super close to God, but in reality, i still feel like i was just saved yesterday and that i'm new to this whole thing. For being a Christian for 12 years now, you'd think that i would be a mature Christian by now. But i suppose the best way to remedy this is by actually getting in the Word. I want to be a missionary, so its imperative that i be close to Him (not just because i want to be a missionary. its truly important for every Christian to grow spiritually) but those are just a few things that have been troubling me lately. add on the drama and the guys and i suppose i'm leading a normal teen's life. (despite the fact i am far from normal) but anyway just want to make a post to let you know i'm still here. :) [[even though no one reads this blog. :)]]
